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Wide open spaces.....

“And as soon as she let go and exhaled, she felt a diminishing sensation detecting a gradual void in her interior. The void wasn't of emptiness but a void of space, increasing and expanding slowly; in and out, back and forth, up and down stretching her inner-self like when a bubble is tenderly blown within its elements allowing the breath of being to pass expanding throughout; to the point where she sensed her heartbeat and total peace of mind.” ―A passage from the novel, - “Her Will” by Floranova B. Msc.

    No, I have not read this entire novel, although I am intensely motivated to, I have only read a few short passages such as this one, however I feel a distinguishing likeness and identification as to what this author  is portraying.  The phrase ‘Wide empty spaces’ could sum up a magnitude of scenarios, encouraging many mental images varying from person to person, for me it describes the void inside of myself which I had harboured and even nourished for way to long.  A void which only I myself could fill as it was a void of self acceptance, self love and self respect.  On way too many occasions in the past, I have ‘sold my-self short’, allowing circumstances, society, peers and even those people closes to me who I love dearly to dictate my worth, my value and even my purpose to me. 

   Now if there is one thing I have come to realise, it is that if you don’t stand for something, you will fall for anything.  You will cling to things which do not necessarily serve you, but make you feel special, needed and important even. However, as you are not rooted into something steadfast, as the winds of change blow, you find yourself swept up and away as the wind scoops all that has no roots.  Depending on the strength of this wind, you could be tossed and twirled and blown this way and that and eventually could find yourself landing in the most unlikely place for you to be.  The wind will settle, as will you and because you are not rooted, you will cosy up to the next comfortable thing to cling to, where you will once again feel special, needed and important.  But what if you have landed on a spot which is used as a compost heap?  If you are carrying a void inside of yourself much like the one Iv described, then you will believe that this compost heap needs you, that you are very lucky to be there and should consider yourself lucky to have this purpose.  You will believe this compost talk until they day you discover your most important component......Your WILL.

 “In the midst of her torment, she felt a sense of hope and trying to understand the gravity of the situation, she thought, 'the circumstances do not own me. I am in the moment and I am capable to decide, either to leave or to stay.' Leading her to understand that it didn't matter how low her self-esteem was; for there was another sensation within her, an oomph driving her forward with certainty and not doubt. The people around her could diminish her self-esteem all they wanted; nevertheless no one was competent to take away the source of her dreams, her drive, a faculty that she was inescapably bonded with, but she had not quite identified within--Her Will.” – Another passage from “Her Will” by Floranova B. Msc.

  Ultimately, we need to learn to let go and letting go is never really an easy thing to do, however if we do not learn to let go of whatever it is that is holding us back from our pre-designed destiny and our dreams and if we do not anchor ourselves firmly in the belief that we have a purpose, then we will continue to settle amount the compost leaves.  I don’t know about you, but I would much rather be used in an elaborate and majestically flamboyant bouquet of colour, encouraging a sense and feel of joy, positivity and creatively motivated thoughts posed to the dismal idea of a compost heap.

As we let go of our void within (whatever it may be) we could find that those ever increasing wide empty spaces which cause us to be forever searching for the missing ingredient, are actually wide OPEN spaces and not really empty at all.  Open to be filled with all the ingredients you already possess, but might not be aware of, ingredients such as; self-worth, self-acceptance, hope, creativity, capability.......your own WILL’.  And in letting go of the low-self esteem instigating thoughts and realising your own self-worth and will, your soul and mind and even your heart could find peace, love, hope and  joy......self-acceptance, the very things you may have been searching for all  these years.

So off you go, letting it go and finding something to stand for (if you haven’t already) make your wide open spaces work for you and fill them up with shiny, glittery beauty!

Glitter greetings (and all things shiny)

Bohemian B