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I think, therefore I am dangerous

We all know the rhyme about positive thinking and how your thoughts can determine your situation, your mood and ultimately your outcome. I know this all too well, even proven it to myself a couple of times, however with my many colourful voices busying themselves in my mind constantly, I can honestly say, “I think, therefore I am dangerous”. 

For some time now I have been battling the ‘battlefield in my mind’, so to speak, trying to combat the negative thoughts and replace them with positive ones. This however, is often easier said than done though, especially for someone with a rainbow coloured, selection of personalities, such as myself.  Just as I think that I’ve managed to accomplish the ‘thinking’ task and gain control over its (often ludicrous) pattern, another one of ‘me’ runs with a new and improved variety of the same dangerous thought. So ultimately, what I find myself doing, is my other favourite word, procrastinate.  I put off ‘changing my train of thought’ until later, only later comes... well too late. By then this dangerous thought has grown arms (with hairy armpits) and legs (with knobbly knees) and a whole new personality of its own and before you know it, what started out as a negative thought is now a fully fledged, problematic character infiltrating my personal space bubble which could have been avoided, had I just practiced a very simple exercise,a friend recently suggested.

Talk to myself, at first I wondered if he had ever known me at all throughout our 20-year friendship. After all, an almost lifelong friend should know that my talking to myself normally CREATES the problem, how on earth could it possibly solve one?You see, talking to myself has generally never been a problem for me, people often have the entertaining pleasure of observing me having full on conversations with myself, arguments even at times, but it is not often that you will hear me distinctively reprimand myself. However, this is exactly what he suggested I do, STOP myself by saying something as simple as, “ Bohemian B, will you STOP and LISTEN to what you are thinking!” or “ Stop this irrationally dangerous thought pattern immediately” and then, instead of trying to turn the negative thought into something ‘prettier’, rather think of something completely different. In other words, stop giving this unwelcome and negative thought power.

As it so happens, apparently I can think up something without even realizing what I’m doing ( yes, I’m sure I’m the only person to ever do this and you have no idea what I’m talking about) but once I’ve spoken the words out loud, I realize how absolutely absurd the thought actually is!As my stepson so aptly put it tonight during a conversation: “at first it is just a thought, but if you think about it a bit longer it becomes a bit of a problem and then if you think about it even longer it becomes an obstacle in your path, eventually if you continue thinking about it, it becomes a bad situation which eventually starts eating away at you and ultimately becomes an obsession”. Well there you have it, once again I learn a valuable lesson from one of my children. And surely if my kids can grasp this basic principal, my many “me’s” should be able to get it as well... being older and “wiser” (haha yeah right). So, please don’t be alarmed should you ever witness me reprimanding myself severely, this will only be Bohemian B “turning her frown, up-side down”. Until next week!

Glitter greetings (and all things shiny)

Bohemian B