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Un-Becoming

Whilst sorting through my overloaded memory bank this week, contemplating my topic for this column, I realized with horror that my ‘filing system’ was in complete disarray.  After, once again, severely reprimanding myself for the umpteenth time, to ‘sort myself out’ and focus on my journey to becoming… What?  And right then and there, each one of my colourful personalities came up with a thousand questions concerning my life’s journey. Don’t get me wrong, I know who I am and am completely content with the knowledge of this, however, where is my life’s journey taking me and what am I supposed to ‘become?’Societies over baring and hollow voice ringing in my ears as with every thought, the voices in my busy mind map out a bunch of ‘escape routes’ in the hope of reaching a successful answer/solution.  Should I proceed with option A or rather progress towards option B? Perhaps option C would be the easiest route to follow, but then I might miss out on the exciting adventure option D could have in store…and all this to answer a simple question, what do I ‘become’ as I continue along my life’s path.  MY Journey to becoming… well, what?And there it was, right in front of me, starring me in the face, it was in the air I breathe, it was in the breeze rustling the few autumn leaves left on the almost bare trees in my garden.  The answer I had read not so long ago and I never realized it was the answer to a pending question which would be worn heavily in the very near future.

   The answer is simply this: Perhaps the journey isn’t all about ‘becoming’ anything.  Maybe it’s about ‘un-becoming’ everything that isn’t really me. Things that have been attached to me by people’s words, societies expectations and perhaps even my own (often negative) thought patterns.  You see, if I un-become all these ‘branded’ suggestions, descriptions, labels and pre-determined expectations, then I can rather just BE who I was meant to be in the first place – ME!

In conclusion, along my journey of life I am not becoming anything more or better than just me.  I am rather un-becoming so that I can confidently and freely just BE the ME I was meant to be before ‘someone’ decided that I Had to BECOME anything other than who I am.

Till next week then, same time, same place.

Glitter greetings (and all things shiny)

Bohemian B